An Increasing Feeling of Want
After a few days pass in this undisturbed happiness, everything changes almost unnoticeably. We have read the books, seen the films we wanted to, we walked around the city and met again old friends. If we are on a trip, we begin to feel that we are fed up with strange people and food with strange tastes.
We more and more often think of being at home, in our accustomed environment, sitting comfortably in our favorite armchair, watching our favorite soap opera. We think more and more of our duties to be accomplished the following week, and we recall the unsolved problems of the past every now and then. In this way the world around us will become gray again, almost unnoticeably, and we start to function again according to our old mental patterns programmed into us.
An acute sense of want appears in us gradually, and we begin to feel that our life is incomplete for some reason. Not even the holiday is what it used to be. What happened to the world, what happened to us, what is out of place in our life? Why are we unable to enjoy the small amount of time that is left of our holiday?
To be on a Holiday for Good
The question arises, how it would be possible to make the initial euphoria of the first days of our holiday permanent, and to avoid the increasingly powerful sense of want that appears after a while. It is certainly not an impossible venture, it is quite feasible, we only need to find the key to it. The key is found in the present moment, in the quality of the way we live through the present moment.
In the first period of our holidays we are filled with the Miracle, we live in the present moment; we are open to both our external and internal environments. We enjoy the sights, the adventures, and submit to the pleasant impressions all these generate in us. If we travel to a new place, we simply have no time to think, we are exposed to so many new experiences. When we idle at home, we just exist without thinking, and we enjoy the moment.
What we should do is make these moments of the Miracle lasting in our life. It is, however, not easy to sustain such moments, because our mind starts working, thoughts appear, and take us right to the past or to the future.
Since, out of ignorance, we identify with our mind, we soar on the wings of thoughts and drift far away from the Miracle. Then the present moment, naturally, loses its magic and the world turns gray, and our senses return to the usual dimmed mode.
From that state, there is hardly any escape, because we identify with our mind, our thoughts to the extent that we believe that it is us there is something wrong with, though we are only the victims of the operational mechanisms of our mind. We will not be able to escape from this situation as long as our unconscious identification with the mind goes on. Final freedom remains a dream for us, and longing for it is hardly a substitute for our gray weekdays. Summer comes again, and for a few days we taste the Miracle, the freedom it offers. Then the whole cycle starts all over again.
What is able to Put and End to that Vicious Circle?
We are only able to escape if we are able to proceed beyond the mind, if we terminate our unconscious identification with it, so we are able get out of the vicious circle. In that case we are able to observe the functions of the mind and realize that we are by no means identical with the our mind and its functions. We are identical with the pure space, the Miracle, in which the functions of the mind take place. We are the pure space of the Miracle, the Consciousness, the existence, which is our real Self.
If we do not merely accept it intellectually, but we also experience the Miracle itself, we may see that there is no more personal identification, no sense of want, only the completeness and freedom of the moment exists.
We are now truly on holidays!